Believe me when i say that the one of the hardest things to overcome in life is your own will ... at least that is one of my hardest things. Don't doubt that i have a strong will but Lord knows that there are some folks on this planet that will make you forget just how strong you really are just by a look or a smile or touch. Children always do that for me. i was having lunch with my family today and a couple walked in with their son who had to be about the same age as my youngest, about 4 months old. Even though i have my own little person who i had just spent a wonder-filled morning with, there was a tug at my heart strings just seeing this other little boy. Not quite sure what it was, but i melted. Damn near started crying for some reason at the sight of him.
i told myself after my last child was born that i was going to wait about 4 or 5 years to have another child. i think that idea might be gone out the window. Even being with my own children makes me want to curse the day that they gain independence. For me, there is something about being needed and relied upon that is fulfilling. i am a nurturer. Giving them nourishment from my very breast is the most joyous part of the whole process.
Could i be addicted to pregnancy?
